Peaceful times , ponderings, God is with me...

[TX Stephanie]

This week, I took time to sit outside my front door in the morning to read my bible and commune with God in nature's setting. I watched the birds go back and forth. There was so much bird traffic!!! Busy little ones they were, but so energetic. I feel so busy some days and mentally drained and not much accomplished. God spoke to me there so clearly. "You worry too much about everyone else and their goings on. It tires you greatly." And so I do and so it does!!!!

This week I decided to give up a few worries. It is very difficult for me being the type that likes all my ducks in a row. I need to be able to focus on my health and well being more. I am so wound up about what someone is or isn't doing, that I don' t do what I should do because I get emotionally and physically spent.

I gave my husband some issues with his medical care to tend to. If he gets it done, great!!! If not, he will continue to have issues in certain areas. I gave my boys their laundry to do, and I am not going to worry if they go somewhere dirty. That is their choice and if someone loses a job due to poor hygiene etc, then so be it. I gave the boys the kitchen to do every night. If it doesn't get done, then everything piles up all the next day and I do not cook! My husband has the chore of making sure they do the kitchen.

I just released a lot of stuff. I am constantly telling someone what to do or showing them that it was done wrong, or not done at all. All that negative energy on things everyone really knows what and how to do. So I am stopping!! Natural consequences and giving more to Hubby to take care of. One of the boys said "I need a gift and cheese for school tomorrow." I told him to talk to his father. I don't do last minute stuff any longer. It got done and not by me for a change.

That was my week of ponderings.

[Beverly]

Well, done!

It is hard to just start saying "no" when folks take advantage of us (even if these folks aren't aware of it!)

Right now, I am very worried about Schmitty and his heart issues. I realize that I need to not worry if he opts to follow what the doctor says. That is easier said than done ... but I am truly trying ... part of the thing that is helping me is that I am away from home at least 8 hours/day (at work).